Update

Well, once again, not much time to write - I've got to get some time in with Zach before he heads off to work and the baby should be getting up any minute for a feeding. I just wanted to let ya'll know that we're hangin' in there. Things are getting better, like everyone says. We're learning more and more about this little guy and about ourselves every day - although the days are all mushing together; I constantly have to be reminded of what day it is. We're learning that running errands takes days instead of hours, the real meaning of patience was way beyond our understanding before having Gavin, eating, taking a shower, and going to the bathroom are luxuries, and we all need help sometimes. Personally, I'm learning, as the Lord has tried to teach me many many times but my pride and fear has always gotten in the way, that you can never have too many friends and you need at least one - your husband doesn't count, that you can talk to about anything. I'm still having a hard time reaching out to people as I've been avoiding making friends for so long, that I don't have that one good friend - and this is a hard time to learn that you need one. I've got many wonderful people in my life, many of which I've started a friendship with, but none that I've known for very long or have spent enough time with - which is my fault. And there are many people that have been such a blessing to us - going grocery shopping for us, calling me (even when I don't call them) to check on me, coming over to spend time and to give me a chance to take a shower and do the laundry, praying for us - Thank you to all of you.