The Countdown

We're getting so close to our move and yet it doesn't seem real. I think it's because we haven't exactly pinned down a date. We've been waiting on my employer to determine the date on which I can leave (long story). So, we know it's going to be the second week of October and we've given notice at our apartment complex that we'll be out on the 10th but it's still subject to adjustment. But, we're very excited! I've started my business as a Creative Memories Consultant - yeah! The link to my website will be posted later if you'd like to check it out. :) No pressure. We've packed about half of our stuff but you know when you start packing it doesn't seem like much and then you start pulling stuff out of nooks and crannies that you haven't seen since you moved in and all of a sudden your few boxes turned into 50 boxes? I have a feeling it's going to be like that. The funny thing is though that the Lord has completely prepared us for this - for those of you that don't know us very well - we've attempted to move several times. I've counted 5 actual moves since Zach and I first started dating a little over 3 years ago! We've also "almost moved" a time or two when we packed our stuff only to end up staying after God stretched out His hand and turned us around. So, I have to praise God that we are well prepared. I had to tell my family that we are "actually moving this time". We're sad but excited for a new start.

On another note, Gavin is teething. I'm excited but at the same time I can't wait for it be over - he's a mess. He's having a hard time eating and sleeping, he's had a little fever and he's just plain fussy. Poor Daddy, home with Gavin while Mommy goes to work today. I know this too will pass.

I feel like I have so much going on in my head and my heart today...I just can't get it all out. My Spirit is mourning for a family who lost their their 9-day-old baby girl yesterday who was born with Trisomy-18. If you would like to visit their blog and send prayers their way, I'm sure it would be appreciated. I haven't been having (or, I should say taking) my prayer time in the morning and it's been showing. Zach and I have been bickering a little more than usual, so it's really on my heart to focus more on our relationship and lifting him up. I just found out we've got issues with our medical insurance and although I know it's going to get worked out, I'm frustrated. I just got my Creative Memories business start up kit and I'm excited and want to start working on getting that set up, but considering we're moving it's a little difficult and counterproductive to try to set up my business. (I'm trying to get all of these things off of my mind so I don't dump on Zach when I get home - he really doesn't like that). Hhhhmmm, what else....I guess I just have a lot to do and I need to sit down and prioritize.

Anyway, I'll stop dumping on you guys and talk to the Lord and get this stuff down on paper. Bless you and please send me a note if you stop by.

News Flash

Well, for those of you that haven't heard, Zach and I will be taking Gavin and escaping to Montana - permenantly, for now (if that makes sense). We're going to be moving in the beginning of October. We just can't seem to keep still for more than a few months at a time. It's all good though. The Holy Spirit moves like the wind and where He goes, we will follow.

This decision comes with mixed emotions - radical joy because I will be able to stay home with my little angel and deep sadness to leave the place I've been my whole life and the loved ones that will remain. I have been praying my heart out about being home with Gavin and I knew He would come through. Praise God. It's so clearly in His will and in His hands, thank God. Zach and I couldn't do this without Him - we've tried many times in vain.

It's such a difficult thing, to leave the familiar comfort of "home" and those that I love. But, that is what God has called us to - a life of the unfamiliar and the uncomfortable. He is constantly asking us move, speak, think, act and love in ways that we've never done before. That's the beauty of a life in submission to Jesus Christ. We are constantly being refined. Unfortunately, when you have loved ones who aren't living with Christ as the priority, people get hurt and angry with this kind of lifestyle. My one prayer at the moment is that good will come from this. And I know it will because it is His will - "Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life" - Psalm 23:6 and "we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him..." - Romans 8:28. Even though I know it, I'm still praying for it. That is the cry of my heart.

Then, the other half of me reminds me that I'm so excited and ready for a change. Putting my angel in daycare is killing me. I've determined that he cries a lot while he is there because 3 nights now I have noticed his voice being all scratchy and hoarse. I thought he might be getting sick but over the weekend it went away and now it's back. :( That makes me very grumpy. I know I should ask our child care provider (she is someone that I trust from church, so I know nothing "bad" is going on and I know she just doesn't want me to worry), but I'm just not sure what to say. I know that he's ok, he's probably just uncomfortable (he is a creature of habit for sure) and stressed not being with his mommy. It just really hurts my heart, you know? I've been reading the blog pages of many SAHM lately and the more I do, the more impressed I am. I believe 100% that being a SAHM is more difficult and takes more discipline than a job alone could require of me. I am constantly learning from these women about organization, creativity, cooking/baking, cleaning, child care, frugality, godliness, marriage and much much more - and that's just from reading their blogs! I can't wait to join this growing group of outstanding women. But, I will be starting to sell some products from a direct selling company to assist my wonderful hubby in supporting our family. I think I'll do scrapbooking with a company called Creative Memories. I've actually never scrapbooked before :) but I'm really interested in it and have just started our first family scrapbook. Plus, my mother-in-law is a very very crafty woman and would love to help me get started (oh yeah, we're moving in with his parents to get started). But, I figure Montana is the place to sell crafty stuff because that's what most people do in the winter when it's too cold to go out side. Anyway, there's the update.

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